When I Look in the Mirror I Don’t See Me

When I look in the mirror I don’t see me… I see a worn out momma.

I’ve been struggling as I adjust to my new role of mom. Constantly feeling like I’m having some kind of identity crisis.

Before the baby I was slim, on time, fully dressed/coordinated and even wore makeup. Looking back… I felt GOOD!!!

It’s hard to walk past a mirror and not recognize myself.

I’m learning to dress my new body. I’m trying to come to terms with the fact that my old favorite pair of jeans may never fit again. I’ve perfected the messy bun and I have one whole drawer dedicated to yoga pants.

My hair is the longest it’s ever been (thank you prenatal vitamins) but it’s falling out like crazy.

My body is sore from growing and birthing a human, my joints ache from rocking him and carrying him all the time and from crawling around on the ground playing.

My eyes have dark circles from the late nights. My face is fuller and the double chin hasn’t gone away yet.

My boobs are saggy and have stretch marks.

My stomach has a kangaroo pouch of skin that may never go away and my thighs have spider veins that look like a treasure map.

They say being a mom is hard but you never really know what that means until you live it. It’s so much more than “hard”.

I LOVE being a mom. I want to love my body. I want my son to see me at my best.

Stay tuned as I share all the tips and tricks I learn as I try to get back on track!

 

 

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Hi, I’m so excited your here! My name is Amanda. Welcome to my blog Dishes and Denim! Writing is my outlet. It grounds me. So, I decided to start a blog where I can share my life with you! I was born and raised in Cleveland, Ohio. My son Bradley was born April 1st, 2018. He is my entire world. Simple is my specialty. I don’t have a lot of extra time and the time I do have I want to spend with my family. I love cooking, cleaning, photography, writing, sewing and running. Maintaining an organized and clutter-free home is a priority. I have a mild obsession with buying photography props, notebooks, coffee mugs, and pens. If there was an award for overanalyzing – I would win every year. I’m a hopeless romantic. My favorite color is turquoise. My perfect day includes waking up to a clean house and having a Starbucks Skinny Vanilla Latte and fresh fruit waiting for me…followed by a long hot shower then bumming around town in comfy jeans and a perfectly fitting white tee and my denim jacket (taking pictures and visiting antique shops). For dinner, I would request a cheeseburger (red onions, pickle, and ketchup) with a side salad (Balsamic, no tomatoes) Then end the day relaxing on my patio with twinkle lights, a glass of Entwine Cabernet and my family (bonus points for a campfire and S’mores). If you want to know more about me you can either invite me out for a glass of red wine or check out some of my blog posts!

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